The Last Four Days

A memory

"One decision, is all it took for my life to change forever, to go from a future written to me from before I was born, to one that i get to write, live and explore. A future filled with love and hope. I never imagined that i could ever do it, andd looking back on it, I still dont know how i did it. But i guess when life gives you a chance to be part of the life of the most beautiful woman I have ever seen in my life, you would do anything to make it happen. I wish i couldve known all the things that ive had to learn ever since that day, i wish i did right by you at every turn, at every situation every single day. because thats what you deserve in my eyes. Im so thankful to you that through this journey of our love story, you never lost hope in me, no matter how hard the day, or challanging the situation you put your trust in me that day. You gifted me your heart, and i havent handled it well, but i promise you that i care for you heart more than i care for my own. Its my favorite gift i have ever gotten from you. Ill never forget when we sat on the edge of the water, on this cold fabruary day in the darkness. We were alone and we were in love, we were getting closer to keep the warmth and holding each others hands, to keep the warmth obviously, and definitely not because i loved holding your hands so much."

A memory

"Its hard to forget a face like yours baby, its in improinted into my brain that i even imagine it all the time. Ill never forget how beautiful you were when we went on the sushi date, or when we went out before you left for poland. Everything with you is just perfect. I wouldve never imagined that i deserved someone as beautiful as you to be all for me, and sometimes i still struggle to believe it. But ever since we got together you have shown me every day what true love is, what it means to love someon, But most importantly how to love someone properly, you taught me to show care in ways i was never taught, you taught me the importance of being sthere for someone, before you i didnt know the differnce between having someone whold you while you cry and crying alone in silence to not make people think that im crying. You made me love and appreciate myself you made me feel worth loving, like me and you were the only two that mattred. I need to say thank you to your enchanting eyes, thank you to your beautiful smile, thank you to your warm heart, thank you to your loving soul, thank you to your caring nature, thank you to your amazing personality, thank you to your beautiful mind, thank you to your amazing body, thank you to your beautiful voice, thank you to your beautiful laugh, thank you to your beautiful mouth. That kisses life into me. You are th ewoman of all my wants and desires, the woman of my dream, and the only woman in my future. I learned of this saying in arabic goes something like this, "Enti amar el zamen, w shams el maken". You are the moon of all times, and the sun of all places. I love you so much my angel, and i cannot wait to see you again."

A memory

"The note you slipped into my jacket pocket last winter. I still carry it. I read it on hard days."

A memory

"That night we stayed up until 4am talking about nothing and everything. I knew then. I still know now."